My thoughts..

Holidays are soon going to be over, same complaint, no time... used to be no time to enjoy the holidays, still have work to do over the holidays. Well, its the same now, some stuff to clear, lots of books that i want to read not read. One difference is, now i don't even have time to "zuo bo". If i have time to "zuo bo", the time is spent feeling guilty of not spending it with my little one.

For the past few weeks, Daddy has still been going for his practicum for his early childhood course, so i still brought Bernice to wai po's house, and i will just spend the time watching her, playing with her and of course not doing any school stuff even though i am supposed to be able to, since my mum is taking care of her. Well, not sure if it was an excuse to be lazy, haha. And, since last friday, Daddy has not been going for his practicum, so i have been looking after Bernice since Thursday night without my mum's help til now. Brought her to wai po's house to stay over tonight as Daddy and I going JB early tomorrow morning.

Wai po asked," why you take taxi, don't take bus?" I," Aiyoh, without CL, taking bus with her is tough."(Only Daddy has the magic power to hold her down without her making more noise than if i was the one who hold her down, he also can make her sleep by holding her and patting her when she is super tired but still wants to crawl around the room. ) Next, i said, " wah, these few days, super tiring ah, bathing her is tough (flips and moves and refuses to sit still), changing her is tough (flips and putting her diapers on is tougher than O levels), looking after her is tough(crawls over the whole place, attempts to hold everything to stand, attempts to eat everything), bringing her out is tough."

Anyway, it is never easy being a mum, really, and to all SAHMs, I salute all of you. And to my mum, my deepest thank you, after looking after us, you still have to look after my kid. Thank you.